I started this meditation two months after my wedding day. You might think that sounds weird because I’m not supposed to look for meditation since I just got married and I'm supposed to be spending the sweetest times of my life with my husband. This is true. My husband was not the reason why I was looking for meditation. He is a nice and kind person.
Before I got married, I had always felt a huge emotional rock in my chest, and it was hard for me to breathe from time to time. I also suffered from digestion issues and headaches. Even after my marriage, I was still worried about everything. I was worried that what if I could not be a good daughter-in-law, what if I’m not a good mom, what if I fail in my married life, and so on and so on. I have always been religious and prayed hard but constantly felt there was a limitation. I really had no place in this world to rest my mind. And then, I found a flyer for this meditation and decided to give it a try.
After finding peace of mind, I am able to be grateful for all the hardships that I have ever had in my life.
I am the kind of person who is easily attached to everything, so I needed plenty of time for my heart and mind to recover. It was not so easy to battle against myself and I had to endure the whole time while letting go of my attachments. However, as time went by, I started to feel the tight emotional knots untangled. I meditated really hard because I had no choice. I really wanted to and had to get better. As I kept going, I was able to escape from the pressure that stemmed from the expectations of all the people that I know including myself. I especially felt huge pressure to be a good mom and have a good child. But, now I found myself at ease always.
Now my mind is completely different.
Many of my friends still ask me, “Why do you spend money on meditation when you’re a person who doesn’t like to spend money?” Then, I always answer like this, “Money does what it does, but there are so many things money can't buy.” Now I am a strong mom with two sons, and my strength comes from wisdom within. I have now realized that all the struggles and obstacles did not stress me out. Rather, it was me who created all those thoughts in my mind and I was a salve to that mind. Now my everyday life has become so “lovely.” I'm so grateful for the meditation method.